Baltimore snowplow nearly runs over Vikings punt team
Really!!!!!!!!! I think some people need to go back to school.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Nintendo gives us a peek at Mario Kart 8 with a new gameplay trailer
Nintendo gives us a peek at Mario Kart 8 with a new gameplay trailer
I absolutely love Nintendo and the wii's. Mario Kart reminds me when my children were little.
I bet this will be a great game.
I absolutely love Nintendo and the wii's. Mario Kart reminds me when my children were little.
I bet this will be a great game.
Monday, December 30, 2013
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Christmas Day
It is Christmas Day. Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!!!
I am up and everyone is still sleeping. I am an early riser. I do enjoy that as the quiet is nice to eat slowly, read my emails and catch up on other things. As all of you moms, and those that work, we get little time to ourselves.
I have had the quite the eventful past week with work. Lots and lots to do there with many customers and more crabbiness than ever. I am sure you all have heard of the security breach the store I work for experienced. We had customers even come into the store and demand we fix it there. Not sure where there brains are at with that one. I totally understand everyone's fears as we employees use our cards there probably the most. I hear some forty million people, but who really ever know. I know there will be people working there today answering the hotline phone.
This past weekend, Target decided to give customers 10% their purchases both Saturday and Sunday. Now, granted it was not on everything and only those two days, but who can pass that up? Our store was crazy busy. Because of this, we would have people wanting that 10% to be extended the next day for an item that our store didn't have but another store did. Or, if no store did, we issued a raincheck. Then the customer wanted the 10% to to be extended for when the raincheck item came in. Where are these people's brains? Target did not have to do this. Our store was a mess. Sunday evening I guess a customer decided he needed ti inform me that the store was trashed cause he was in at 4, was too busy and decided to come back later.
The topper was yesterday afternoon. While working, a on duty manager told me the people in the back room smelled smoke. She went to bypass the alarms. I think she told me some more things and then I hear on my walkie Code Red. Get all customers to the front of the store. Then the lights and alarms were going off. Let's just say, I hope this is a lesson to customers not to put your shopping off to the last minute. It was hard to get some to leave. We, the employees, were told to go across the parking lot to a little restaurant. We had to leave all our things. Some did not. After a while, they told some of us that we could go home, the others were to stay as they were to work until the store closed. If you did not have keys to your car, you could not go back in the building to get them. You would either call home, or wait. I got a ride from a friend and got in through the garage. I left my truck and then my purse and jacket there. I drove down to my mom's and had gift giving. When it was done, my kids took that car home and my husband drove me to the store. The store was closed but workers were in so I could get my purse and jacket. I drove the truck home. I did not smell smoke or see damage. I think it was small and contained.
I am going to enjoy today and relax with family. Tomorrow is back to work and see what the place is like. Here is to hoping next year is better.
Oh, and the bright side, my leaser saw my horse and took a picture of her last night.
I am up and everyone is still sleeping. I am an early riser. I do enjoy that as the quiet is nice to eat slowly, read my emails and catch up on other things. As all of you moms, and those that work, we get little time to ourselves.
I have had the quite the eventful past week with work. Lots and lots to do there with many customers and more crabbiness than ever. I am sure you all have heard of the security breach the store I work for experienced. We had customers even come into the store and demand we fix it there. Not sure where there brains are at with that one. I totally understand everyone's fears as we employees use our cards there probably the most. I hear some forty million people, but who really ever know. I know there will be people working there today answering the hotline phone.
This past weekend, Target decided to give customers 10% their purchases both Saturday and Sunday. Now, granted it was not on everything and only those two days, but who can pass that up? Our store was crazy busy. Because of this, we would have people wanting that 10% to be extended the next day for an item that our store didn't have but another store did. Or, if no store did, we issued a raincheck. Then the customer wanted the 10% to to be extended for when the raincheck item came in. Where are these people's brains? Target did not have to do this. Our store was a mess. Sunday evening I guess a customer decided he needed ti inform me that the store was trashed cause he was in at 4, was too busy and decided to come back later.
The topper was yesterday afternoon. While working, a on duty manager told me the people in the back room smelled smoke. She went to bypass the alarms. I think she told me some more things and then I hear on my walkie Code Red. Get all customers to the front of the store. Then the lights and alarms were going off. Let's just say, I hope this is a lesson to customers not to put your shopping off to the last minute. It was hard to get some to leave. We, the employees, were told to go across the parking lot to a little restaurant. We had to leave all our things. Some did not. After a while, they told some of us that we could go home, the others were to stay as they were to work until the store closed. If you did not have keys to your car, you could not go back in the building to get them. You would either call home, or wait. I got a ride from a friend and got in through the garage. I left my truck and then my purse and jacket there. I drove down to my mom's and had gift giving. When it was done, my kids took that car home and my husband drove me to the store. The store was closed but workers were in so I could get my purse and jacket. I drove the truck home. I did not smell smoke or see damage. I think it was small and contained.
I am going to enjoy today and relax with family. Tomorrow is back to work and see what the place is like. Here is to hoping next year is better.
Oh, and the bright side, my leaser saw my horse and took a picture of her last night.
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Part Two of Helping Others With My Horses
We now have our second horse, Un Dun Dee, or Dinah. She is a Red Dun Paint.Quarter horse. Dinah is about the same size as Sonny but just a little taller. She has a bigger behind and the reason for that is her bloodlines is Halter. Halter showing is using a fancy halter and having a judge look at you and your horse. Your horse is judged on how the stand, back up, stand still, walk, trot, pivot and stop. Apparently, years ago, judges preferred horses with big behinds.
We bring Dinah to Woodloch one month before putting Sonny down. My daughter and I wanted to have two horses for a period of time so that we could ride at the same time. That did not happen. By the time Dinah came, Sonny was having problems with his other front foot. We only could walk him around via the lead rope.
A lady at the stables became our friend. She was about my age and was leasing someone's horse. Susie wanted to lease Sonny but when he was diagnosed with arthritis, she decided to wait until we got another one. As soon as we got Dinah, she started right away. Dinah was a show horse and K wanted to try showing, so this would be good for Susie also. Susie had shown the horse she was leasing and did well.
That first summer, Susie took Dinah to two or three shows and did well again. Dinah was back in her game. K showed Dinah as well and placed in her events. Susie did Dinah in English and Western Pleasure. Kirsten did just Western. I can't remember if they did any others as that was over five years ago.
At the end of the summer, Susie had to end her lease due to money issues. Susie is a teacher and runs out of money until a month after the beginning of the school year. We found two new half time leasers for Dinah. We stayed at Woodloch for about two years and had about three or four leasers for Dinah during that time. One of them I had to end the lease due to the fact that the lady became nervous. The other is a teenage girl who did not know how to ride. Her parents were divorced and neither one had the time to help her with this. She needed lessons three days a week, she pulled hard on the reins and she did things that I told her not to do.
At the time of leaving Woodloch and moving to Mel-O-Dee Stables, I found a high school girl who had leased horses before and lived with her Grandma. She worked at Target also and that was her money to pay for things. The next post will start with the two year friendship this girl had with Dinah and her background.
We bring Dinah to Woodloch one month before putting Sonny down. My daughter and I wanted to have two horses for a period of time so that we could ride at the same time. That did not happen. By the time Dinah came, Sonny was having problems with his other front foot. We only could walk him around via the lead rope.
A lady at the stables became our friend. She was about my age and was leasing someone's horse. Susie wanted to lease Sonny but when he was diagnosed with arthritis, she decided to wait until we got another one. As soon as we got Dinah, she started right away. Dinah was a show horse and K wanted to try showing, so this would be good for Susie also. Susie had shown the horse she was leasing and did well.
That first summer, Susie took Dinah to two or three shows and did well again. Dinah was back in her game. K showed Dinah as well and placed in her events. Susie did Dinah in English and Western Pleasure. Kirsten did just Western. I can't remember if they did any others as that was over five years ago.
At the end of the summer, Susie had to end her lease due to money issues. Susie is a teacher and runs out of money until a month after the beginning of the school year. We found two new half time leasers for Dinah. We stayed at Woodloch for about two years and had about three or four leasers for Dinah during that time. One of them I had to end the lease due to the fact that the lady became nervous. The other is a teenage girl who did not know how to ride. Her parents were divorced and neither one had the time to help her with this. She needed lessons three days a week, she pulled hard on the reins and she did things that I told her not to do.
At the time of leaving Woodloch and moving to Mel-O-Dee Stables, I found a high school girl who had leased horses before and lived with her Grandma. She worked at Target also and that was her money to pay for things. The next post will start with the two year friendship this girl had with Dinah and her background.
Monday, December 9, 2013
Blessing others with my horse
Here I go taking a stab at this blogging of having a horse and how it has helped other people. This will be on how my two horses have helped other people through things, and how I have helped others.
I am going to start out with our first horse named Sonny. Sonny, registered Gold Sonny Reed, was a palomino paint horse. When got him when he was fifteen. I at first wanted to lease a horse, but couldn't find one to work with my schedule and my daughter, K's schedule. We had been taking riding lesson for a year and I really wanted K to have one that she rode most of the time. I was hoping that that would help her with her social anxiety. I had read that animals did.
Since I worked in retail and that consisted of nights and weekends, in addition with K being too young to drive herself; we found a friend of mine there taking lessons who wanted to lease. Leasing is where you pay the owner so much money a month to ride a certain number of times a week. Generally, you use the owners tack and grooming supplies.
During the course of the nineteen months we had him, we had three people leasing him. One girl had anxiety also and needed to be home schooled. The others just felt a connection with him and could find a haven from the regular stressful day.
After sixteen months, Sonny was limping severely on his front left foot. The vet did some digital x-rays and found advanced arthritis. Sonny got special shoes and a supplement. After a couple of months, it no longer helped him. We then made the decision to put him down. That was a hard day. K was only twelve years old and was there that day. She spend time with him until the vet came. When the vet arrived, we walked him to where they were and K handed the lead rope over to her. I went up to say goodbye to him afterwards, but it was too hard for K.
Owning Sonny helped K so much that I couldn't believe it. He helped her more than any treating professional that we had been to could. K also had such a natural talent with horses. I didn't want this to end. Many friends at the stables told me the same thing. Two months before we put him down, knowing this was going to happen soon; we began the search for another horse. That was a difficult process as he was still alive; we would compare those horses to Sonny. After a few weeks, we found one. She is Un Dun Dee, or Dinah. A red dun paint/quarter horse. The story continues in the next post. Here is a picture of Sonny.
I am going to start out with our first horse named Sonny. Sonny, registered Gold Sonny Reed, was a palomino paint horse. When got him when he was fifteen. I at first wanted to lease a horse, but couldn't find one to work with my schedule and my daughter, K's schedule. We had been taking riding lesson for a year and I really wanted K to have one that she rode most of the time. I was hoping that that would help her with her social anxiety. I had read that animals did.
Since I worked in retail and that consisted of nights and weekends, in addition with K being too young to drive herself; we found a friend of mine there taking lessons who wanted to lease. Leasing is where you pay the owner so much money a month to ride a certain number of times a week. Generally, you use the owners tack and grooming supplies.
During the course of the nineteen months we had him, we had three people leasing him. One girl had anxiety also and needed to be home schooled. The others just felt a connection with him and could find a haven from the regular stressful day.
After sixteen months, Sonny was limping severely on his front left foot. The vet did some digital x-rays and found advanced arthritis. Sonny got special shoes and a supplement. After a couple of months, it no longer helped him. We then made the decision to put him down. That was a hard day. K was only twelve years old and was there that day. She spend time with him until the vet came. When the vet arrived, we walked him to where they were and K handed the lead rope over to her. I went up to say goodbye to him afterwards, but it was too hard for K.
Owning Sonny helped K so much that I couldn't believe it. He helped her more than any treating professional that we had been to could. K also had such a natural talent with horses. I didn't want this to end. Many friends at the stables told me the same thing. Two months before we put him down, knowing this was going to happen soon; we began the search for another horse. That was a difficult process as he was still alive; we would compare those horses to Sonny. After a few weeks, we found one. She is Un Dun Dee, or Dinah. A red dun paint/quarter horse. The story continues in the next post. Here is a picture of Sonny.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
The Holidays in Retail
It has been a long time since I have had a few moments to write anything.
Since I have gone back to work at Target during the week in addition to the weekends I was doing earlier, I have been working most days of the week. For some reason this week is only three days. I am not going to complain, I have so many things to get done. In addition, cashiering has been extremely painful for me. My spine surgeon put me on restrictive work orders.
I worked Black Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It was busy. I didn't on Thanksgiving even though our store opened at 8 p.m. I was a nice Thanksgiving. Everyone was healthy. Our son was home all week from college. It was great to see him. We didn't have my mother-in-law this year, she was with her other son. It was nice and quiet. My sister-in-law's brother and family were not there either.
Our son did not want to go back to school because this is finals time. He has never been one that likes school. I pray that he is able to handle these last three weeks well.
I did get an MRI on my neck, there was nothing that shouted surgery. My doctor now thinks it is either the rotatory cuff. On to physical therapy. If that doesn't work, an ultrasound to see if I tore anything. I sure was hoping they would find something to fix the pain.
The lady that has been leasing our horse for about the past year, bought her own horse. She said that she was only looking. We all told her to also look at other horses. Also, to get a prepurchase exam. She never did anything of these things. She wants to fulfill the lease agreement. That ends the last day of January. She paid for the horse the full amount. Not even a down payment. The owner is wanting money each month until she takes the horse, that is to pay for food. The amount though is more than enough. She told me she wanted my to help to purchase things, yet I was told today of all the things she has already bought. The last straw, she has stopped taking lesson with our instructor. She has a hard time riding this horse without weekly lessons. To me, the most funniest thing, she has not told her husband.
This leaser thinks I should write a book or blog about owning a horse, about how to buy a horse and helping new horse owners. Sad, but all the things I would put down, she has not done. Not sure why she suggested any of this if she hasn't followed any of my suggestions. Oh well. I think I still will just for the fun of it.
Busy week next week at work. I am trying to put together the money to go to Florida in Feburary. The company my husband works for is having a Mega Meeting there. I will need a break from work and that would be fun to do.
Ta, ta for now.
Since I have gone back to work at Target during the week in addition to the weekends I was doing earlier, I have been working most days of the week. For some reason this week is only three days. I am not going to complain, I have so many things to get done. In addition, cashiering has been extremely painful for me. My spine surgeon put me on restrictive work orders.
I worked Black Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It was busy. I didn't on Thanksgiving even though our store opened at 8 p.m. I was a nice Thanksgiving. Everyone was healthy. Our son was home all week from college. It was great to see him. We didn't have my mother-in-law this year, she was with her other son. It was nice and quiet. My sister-in-law's brother and family were not there either.
Our son did not want to go back to school because this is finals time. He has never been one that likes school. I pray that he is able to handle these last three weeks well.
I did get an MRI on my neck, there was nothing that shouted surgery. My doctor now thinks it is either the rotatory cuff. On to physical therapy. If that doesn't work, an ultrasound to see if I tore anything. I sure was hoping they would find something to fix the pain.
The lady that has been leasing our horse for about the past year, bought her own horse. She said that she was only looking. We all told her to also look at other horses. Also, to get a prepurchase exam. She never did anything of these things. She wants to fulfill the lease agreement. That ends the last day of January. She paid for the horse the full amount. Not even a down payment. The owner is wanting money each month until she takes the horse, that is to pay for food. The amount though is more than enough. She told me she wanted my to help to purchase things, yet I was told today of all the things she has already bought. The last straw, she has stopped taking lesson with our instructor. She has a hard time riding this horse without weekly lessons. To me, the most funniest thing, she has not told her husband.
This leaser thinks I should write a book or blog about owning a horse, about how to buy a horse and helping new horse owners. Sad, but all the things I would put down, she has not done. Not sure why she suggested any of this if she hasn't followed any of my suggestions. Oh well. I think I still will just for the fun of it.
Busy week next week at work. I am trying to put together the money to go to Florida in Feburary. The company my husband works for is having a Mega Meeting there. I will need a break from work and that would be fun to do.
Ta, ta for now.
Monday, November 11, 2013
The Thanksgiving Month
Well, it is November already. One more month and then a new year is upon us. We will all be one year older, married one more year, closer to retirement, living in the same place one year longer or even celebrating one more year of being cancer free.
I am reading all over Facebook and even here on people's blogs about being thankful. I think this is nice but I believe in doing it every day. You won't read any of my things on here or Facebook all summed up in one month. Each month there are little things and big things to be thankful for. I try to acknowledge those things whenever they happen.
I am thankful for family, friends, food, clothes, shelter, health, a job, my horse, transportation, the luxuries in life. I am thankful for the healthcare that I have here in America, the abundance of food and also all the places to go see here. I am thankful for the freedom we have to go to church, to school, to marry who we want and have the jobs we desire. The list is endless.
Yet, there are many people who are struggling right now with huge things. Or, with so many things that they can't see above it. I totally know how they feel. My husband's job is always unsure. My oldest has a career that will never make a lot of money. My middle never seems to get great grades. My mother-in-law is always needing something so that the nursing home calls my husband to take care of it. My husband has low self-esteem so that it doesn't matter what I say or how, it always comes out critical of him. I am possibly going to need a fourth surgery in four years. It might be number two on my neck.
Oh, and now I may be working Thanksgiving evening. I work in retail and many stores are now open that evening into Black Friday night. I know, I know, it is money. But retail at the holidays is horrible. Since I will be working so many hours, I plan on going somewhere this winter when it is dead at the store. My husband's company holds a annual mega meeting in Florida. This year it is in February. I hope he gets invited and is staying at the Orlando World Center Marriott. If he is, I am going with. I will have money saved up. Our youngest will be at home and in school. Our oldest will come and stay with her while we are gone.
I hope every one has a wonderful Thanksgiving with family. From now till after Christmas, I won't have much free time. I will try to post some here and there. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!
I am reading all over Facebook and even here on people's blogs about being thankful. I think this is nice but I believe in doing it every day. You won't read any of my things on here or Facebook all summed up in one month. Each month there are little things and big things to be thankful for. I try to acknowledge those things whenever they happen.
I am thankful for family, friends, food, clothes, shelter, health, a job, my horse, transportation, the luxuries in life. I am thankful for the healthcare that I have here in America, the abundance of food and also all the places to go see here. I am thankful for the freedom we have to go to church, to school, to marry who we want and have the jobs we desire. The list is endless.
Yet, there are many people who are struggling right now with huge things. Or, with so many things that they can't see above it. I totally know how they feel. My husband's job is always unsure. My oldest has a career that will never make a lot of money. My middle never seems to get great grades. My mother-in-law is always needing something so that the nursing home calls my husband to take care of it. My husband has low self-esteem so that it doesn't matter what I say or how, it always comes out critical of him. I am possibly going to need a fourth surgery in four years. It might be number two on my neck.
Oh, and now I may be working Thanksgiving evening. I work in retail and many stores are now open that evening into Black Friday night. I know, I know, it is money. But retail at the holidays is horrible. Since I will be working so many hours, I plan on going somewhere this winter when it is dead at the store. My husband's company holds a annual mega meeting in Florida. This year it is in February. I hope he gets invited and is staying at the Orlando World Center Marriott. If he is, I am going with. I will have money saved up. Our youngest will be at home and in school. Our oldest will come and stay with her while we are gone.
I hope every one has a wonderful Thanksgiving with family. From now till after Christmas, I won't have much free time. I will try to post some here and there. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!
Monday, November 4, 2013
My son's first visit home from college.
Our son came home this weekend from college. Yeah!!! It was his first time since leaving in August. It is only our second time seeing him.
My husband drove down Friday to get him. A had all of his summer clothes to bring home and his bike. K had to go to school and I went to work. Not long after I got home did my son and my husband arrived home.
We had a supper he enjoys and of course he ate a lot since it was not college food. After that, he went to his former place of employment to see his friends. W and I went to the grocery store to get food for while he was home. After we got home, A helped with the food and we talked. I went to bed as I had to work the next day.
All day Saturday I was at work. We had a nice supper but I needed to go see my horse. I had not seen her in a week.
It is already Sunday. Our oldest daughter and her boyfriend came over after church and had lunch. This is the first time she has seen her brother since he left in August. The meal was good but M did her normal mothering talks. Even K was trying to get M to change subjects. They eventually did, and then M did the talks to K. Oh, some things will never change. All in all, the lunch was fun. Our family was together again for a brief period. This reminds me why I am looking forward to the empty nest years.
My husband took A back to college as I had to work, again. K had to work again. A will be back the whole week of Thanksgiving. He will get to see the extended family. That will be fun. Till then, we hope he has fun and does well in his studies.
My husband drove down Friday to get him. A had all of his summer clothes to bring home and his bike. K had to go to school and I went to work. Not long after I got home did my son and my husband arrived home.
We had a supper he enjoys and of course he ate a lot since it was not college food. After that, he went to his former place of employment to see his friends. W and I went to the grocery store to get food for while he was home. After we got home, A helped with the food and we talked. I went to bed as I had to work the next day.
All day Saturday I was at work. We had a nice supper but I needed to go see my horse. I had not seen her in a week.
It is already Sunday. Our oldest daughter and her boyfriend came over after church and had lunch. This is the first time she has seen her brother since he left in August. The meal was good but M did her normal mothering talks. Even K was trying to get M to change subjects. They eventually did, and then M did the talks to K. Oh, some things will never change. All in all, the lunch was fun. Our family was together again for a brief period. This reminds me why I am looking forward to the empty nest years.
My husband took A back to college as I had to work, again. K had to work again. A will be back the whole week of Thanksgiving. He will get to see the extended family. That will be fun. Till then, we hope he has fun and does well in his studies.
Monday, October 21, 2013
When your dreams are not in God's plans for you.
I have not had a week job for four and a half months. With Christmas upon us, our checking account looks to small to do gifts. We also have K senior pictures, and visiting colleges. Then comes applying for colleges, graduation ceremony and the open house.
Last week I made myself available during the day during the week at my weekend place, Target. Next week I am working thirteen hours during the week, plus on the weekend.
I did not want to do this because of my body, but the biggest reason is, I have all my life wanted to have an office job and travel.
Now, I was close to that dream but was laid off from work when I was 8 months pregnant. The company knew that was not good since no other employer would hire me when I could have a baby any day. I easily could have won a lawsuit for this. The company and I settled on an agreement.
Since then, I have pretty much stayed home with my children. I did do some temporary work and then a part-time office job. It was hard to do these and be in charge of picking the child up from daycare.
For the last sixteen years, I have I worked in retail. For five years, I worked at two places. This was not my dream. Having children was, but I had always thought I work in an office and travel.
Here I am, 49, getting closer and closer to retirement. The chance of my getting the job and getting smaller and smaller. Since I left my other job in June, I have applied for almost thirty jobs. Nothing, nothing. I am registered with five temporary agencies, and nothing.
When I was little, did God put that dream in me or Satan? So many things I have wanted have not happen. My paths have most of the time been different. I wonder, do I hear God? Am I not doing something right? What really are God's plans for me? Does he not give us the desires or our heart? No, not all of them. He knows which ones would hurt us. Yet, it seems like almost all of mine are not given.
In addition, I thought I was only to work on the weekend and maybe find a hobby to do. That hobby would be something I could do if we get a farm. By working more hours, I am not putting all of my trust in God to provide for us financially. Have I disappointed God? How we were to buy gifts this year?
My prayers for this is that my body does not require more surgeries in the next year. I pray that the doctors can find a way to fix me. Also, that this is temporary.
Last week I made myself available during the day during the week at my weekend place, Target. Next week I am working thirteen hours during the week, plus on the weekend.
I did not want to do this because of my body, but the biggest reason is, I have all my life wanted to have an office job and travel.
Now, I was close to that dream but was laid off from work when I was 8 months pregnant. The company knew that was not good since no other employer would hire me when I could have a baby any day. I easily could have won a lawsuit for this. The company and I settled on an agreement.
Since then, I have pretty much stayed home with my children. I did do some temporary work and then a part-time office job. It was hard to do these and be in charge of picking the child up from daycare.
For the last sixteen years, I have I worked in retail. For five years, I worked at two places. This was not my dream. Having children was, but I had always thought I work in an office and travel.
Here I am, 49, getting closer and closer to retirement. The chance of my getting the job and getting smaller and smaller. Since I left my other job in June, I have applied for almost thirty jobs. Nothing, nothing. I am registered with five temporary agencies, and nothing.
When I was little, did God put that dream in me or Satan? So many things I have wanted have not happen. My paths have most of the time been different. I wonder, do I hear God? Am I not doing something right? What really are God's plans for me? Does he not give us the desires or our heart? No, not all of them. He knows which ones would hurt us. Yet, it seems like almost all of mine are not given.
In addition, I thought I was only to work on the weekend and maybe find a hobby to do. That hobby would be something I could do if we get a farm. By working more hours, I am not putting all of my trust in God to provide for us financially. Have I disappointed God? How we were to buy gifts this year?
My prayers for this is that my body does not require more surgeries in the next year. I pray that the doctors can find a way to fix me. Also, that this is temporary.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Date Night seeing MercyMe in concert
I have another Christian band that I can check off my bucket list. In the past two years I now have seen three groups I have wanted to seen for a long time. One of them was good but the concert was more like a church service. Still, my all time favorite was about seven years ago, and the band could put on a show. They had a duo between the drummer and the lead singer on bongos.
Friday night's concert was awesome also. We left home for Rochester, which is an hour and a half from us. When we got there, we found a Perkins and had supper. We looked at our phones for the time and decided we needed to find the church. We got there, bought some merchandise and then our seats. We first thought we were in the front area. We looked at our tickets and thought they were in the third row. We sat down and looked at the stage. WOW!! My husband and I both took pictures with our cell phones. The opening act started and a usher came to our row with a family. He asked to look at our tickets and told us that we were actually in the front row. We got up and moved to our seats, along with everyone else in that row. That was incredible.
MercyMe was great to see that close. It was worth every penny. It was a moving concert and brings you closer to God. I just love how God is used through these musicians. I am going to see if I can get the pictures from my phone to post on here.
We got home late and our daughter was already in bed, since she had to get up early for work.
Can't wait to find the next Christian musician to see.
Friday night's concert was awesome also. We left home for Rochester, which is an hour and a half from us. When we got there, we found a Perkins and had supper. We looked at our phones for the time and decided we needed to find the church. We got there, bought some merchandise and then our seats. We first thought we were in the front area. We looked at our tickets and thought they were in the third row. We sat down and looked at the stage. WOW!! My husband and I both took pictures with our cell phones. The opening act started and a usher came to our row with a family. He asked to look at our tickets and told us that we were actually in the front row. We got up and moved to our seats, along with everyone else in that row. That was incredible.
MercyMe was great to see that close. It was worth every penny. It was a moving concert and brings you closer to God. I just love how God is used through these musicians. I am going to see if I can get the pictures from my phone to post on here.
We got home late and our daughter was already in bed, since she had to get up early for work.
Can't wait to find the next Christian musician to see.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Just playing around with the camera I got for Christmas
School has been back in session for K for a month now. Our son is still at college and has been for six weeks and our oldest is still in her apartment. I still only have my work that is on the weekends. During the week I do find errands to do along with household chores. Most of the weeks my husband has been gone for meetings. When he isn't he is downstairs in his office. To say the least, I am bored.
I have considered volunteering. The problem with that is I have limited gas funds for my vehicle along with restrictions from my neck surgeon. Since I have time on my hands I decided to learn more about the camera I got for Christmas. I have been taking pictures around my yard along with where we board our stables.
Here are just a few of them. I hope I can spend more time with the manual to understand it more. I hope you enjoy them.
I have considered volunteering. The problem with that is I have limited gas funds for my vehicle along with restrictions from my neck surgeon. Since I have time on my hands I decided to learn more about the camera I got for Christmas. I have been taking pictures around my yard along with where we board our stables.
Here are just a few of them. I hope I can spend more time with the manual to understand it more. I hope you enjoy them.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Life here on Earth has it's ups and downs
Well, K had two interviews last week. One of the stores sent her an rejection email (that was the one she wanted to work for), the other one gave her a conditional offer. This week she has to go to a clinic that does drug tests. Since K is a minor, I have to go with. It seems weird to me that my daughter has to be tested for drugs. I can understand someone like my oldest and of course me.
M's boyfriend had three interviews with the same company. He has not heard back from them. The company is trying to work out a lease for a building. He does have a small paying co-editor job for a website magazine company. That is a step in the direction of a sports writing career.
I am so grateful for all God has done for us, yet there is still more.
Over the weekend, K got her senior pictures taken. We brought the horse up to the company's place. Our horse wasn't thrilled about posing. She wanted to eat their grass and visit their horses. It was beautiful day especially after the rain the day before. Since we have warm weather and little rain, the leaves were either brown or their usual color. They say that Minnesota is two weeks behind in the leaves changing color. Oh well, hopefully the pictures will still be great.
M's boyfriend had three interviews with the same company. He has not heard back from them. The company is trying to work out a lease for a building. He does have a small paying co-editor job for a website magazine company. That is a step in the direction of a sports writing career.
I am so grateful for all God has done for us, yet there is still more.
Over the weekend, K got her senior pictures taken. We brought the horse up to the company's place. Our horse wasn't thrilled about posing. She wanted to eat their grass and visit their horses. It was beautiful day especially after the rain the day before. Since we have warm weather and little rain, the leaves were either brown or their usual color. They say that Minnesota is two weeks behind in the leaves changing color. Oh well, hopefully the pictures will still be great.
Here is a picture of them during the session. The place was beautiful so much I wanted to buy it from then and bring my horse there. We obviously won't until K has finished high school, had the open house and she is at college. We won't need this big house that we are in now. Every time K and I talk about it to my husband, he says something to crash that dream. I don't know why he does that since he does all the time. I quite having goals and dreaming years ago. Life has always given me the unexpected. I have had to in an instant change my plans. I live day by day. The goals I had had to be put on the back burner. My dreams never came to. Now, I just live each day as is. W hates that I don't do this. So now that I have one, he tells me we will never be able to afford our own property, or we won't find a house layout that he likes.
We are now on to looking at colleges for K. We just need to find a time where we can spend more than a few minutes looking.
How is everyone's else Autumn going? I hope that is full of fun, adventure and new experiences. I love this season with the leaves changing then dropping so we can make big piles. I love the cooler temperatures and wearing new clothes. The boots that are in style along with cozy sweaters. It is time to make apple crisp and pie. Enjoy this season everyone!!!!!
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Family Weekend at Southwest Minnesota State Universitys
We had a wonderful weekend visiting our son at college. It had been a month already since we went to Marshall to move him in. Our oldest couldn't go with because of work. It was just my husband and K that went with.
We picked up K early from school and started on our three hour drive. The toughest part is getting from our end of the cities to the other. Once we are past that, it is only about two hours.
The drive was beautiful and perfect weather. The farmers fields though looked bad from the heat, drought and then hail storms they have had. K was in the back seat listening to her music and napping. Next to her was the refrigerator that A wanted for his room. I was in front and was listening to my music. With the invention of GPSs, the passenger is not needed to read maps. I love it. My husband had his music playing through the car stereo.
We arrived to Marshall around supper time. After going to our son's dorm to pick him up, he immediately told us where he wanted to go. While eating, K talked to her brother non stop. W and I wanted to ask him things and A wanted to tell us things, but K barely to breaks to even eat. After supper we went to the student center to watch Iron Man 3. Not my kind of movie, but it was free and we were with our son. After that was over, we walked around the center for a while and then left him at his dorm and we went to our hotel. We were tired from the drive.
It is Saturday now, and the first thing again he wants to do is go and have breakfast. The college only serves lunch and supper on the weekends. A is a skinny, tall kid that eats forever. We take him to Walmart to do some shopping. There is no Target in Marshall, and that does not make him happy. The college has a free lunch for families. It was good and we even met the dean for the area that A is majoring in. There was a man who drew caricatures there and we all did that. A got his room set up with the new chair, frig and microwave. They had nearby high school marching bands there for a competition. The problem, they had admission to watch and we were not prepared for that. A took us on a tour of the campus some more and then we called it a night.
It is Sunday morning and K says she needs to get home to do homework and A says he has some also. We have breakfast and then say goodbye. We once again make the three hour trip back home. We won't see him now until Thanksgiving. We miss him but with K looking at colleges herself and preparing for graduation, we do stay busy.
Here are pictures of the campus at Southwest Minnesota State University.
We picked up K early from school and started on our three hour drive. The toughest part is getting from our end of the cities to the other. Once we are past that, it is only about two hours.
The drive was beautiful and perfect weather. The farmers fields though looked bad from the heat, drought and then hail storms they have had. K was in the back seat listening to her music and napping. Next to her was the refrigerator that A wanted for his room. I was in front and was listening to my music. With the invention of GPSs, the passenger is not needed to read maps. I love it. My husband had his music playing through the car stereo.
We arrived to Marshall around supper time. After going to our son's dorm to pick him up, he immediately told us where he wanted to go. While eating, K talked to her brother non stop. W and I wanted to ask him things and A wanted to tell us things, but K barely to breaks to even eat. After supper we went to the student center to watch Iron Man 3. Not my kind of movie, but it was free and we were with our son. After that was over, we walked around the center for a while and then left him at his dorm and we went to our hotel. We were tired from the drive.
It is Saturday now, and the first thing again he wants to do is go and have breakfast. The college only serves lunch and supper on the weekends. A is a skinny, tall kid that eats forever. We take him to Walmart to do some shopping. There is no Target in Marshall, and that does not make him happy. The college has a free lunch for families. It was good and we even met the dean for the area that A is majoring in. There was a man who drew caricatures there and we all did that. A got his room set up with the new chair, frig and microwave. They had nearby high school marching bands there for a competition. The problem, they had admission to watch and we were not prepared for that. A took us on a tour of the campus some more and then we called it a night.
It is Sunday morning and K says she needs to get home to do homework and A says he has some also. We have breakfast and then say goodbye. We once again make the three hour trip back home. We won't see him now until Thanksgiving. We miss him but with K looking at colleges herself and preparing for graduation, we do stay busy.
Here are pictures of the campus at Southwest Minnesota State University.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Things are looking up!!!!!!!!!!!
I am feeling better about life these days.
My horse, Dinah, is doing much better. Her injury is 99% healed. When Dinah trots, there might be a lag but it is hard to tell. When she does lope, there is a small lag. Otherwise, Dinah can walk and trot and canter with no pain. It is so fun to watch her let herself go now. You can tell Dinah is happy, she bucks and shakes her head. She has been couped up for so long it made her crazy. Now that we got on her, Dinah decides to do what she wants. We need to remind her that we want certain things from her and when we cue her she should respond, just like before the injury. We have a leaser and Dinah takes advantage of this lady's nervousness. Our leaser had a lesson with our trainer. They started from square 1. It went well and Dinah is responding much better to our leaser. The trainer also said that Dinah looks good and if there is a lag it is so small it is not to think about.
This weekend we finally got a good soaking beneficial rain. It was wonderful. Everything outside has perked up. Now, a few days later and we are getting some more light rain. The farmers are sure happy. I am sad to hear that other parts of the US are having devastating floods. Here is our state we were in a severe drought.
My oldest boyfriend finally got a paying job for writing. We are all so happy as that is his passion and he is good at it. It is a step in the right direction for him. It will not pay enough for him to live on his own so he still needs to find something else to do.
I see God working again in my life and those around me. Like I have said before, I always look even for the small. We can easily get depressed and that is our human nature. We pray forever for something to happen and everything else falls around it. But then, things do start changing. Thank you God for everything you do. I am sorry for all the sins I have done.
Now waiting to hear from my son that his academics at college are better than before. He is doing well there with everything else. I am also waiting for my husband to get a different job within his company. And waiting for some job for me for during the week.
Have a great rest of the week everyone and enjoy what God is doing for you.
My horse, Dinah, is doing much better. Her injury is 99% healed. When Dinah trots, there might be a lag but it is hard to tell. When she does lope, there is a small lag. Otherwise, Dinah can walk and trot and canter with no pain. It is so fun to watch her let herself go now. You can tell Dinah is happy, she bucks and shakes her head. She has been couped up for so long it made her crazy. Now that we got on her, Dinah decides to do what she wants. We need to remind her that we want certain things from her and when we cue her she should respond, just like before the injury. We have a leaser and Dinah takes advantage of this lady's nervousness. Our leaser had a lesson with our trainer. They started from square 1. It went well and Dinah is responding much better to our leaser. The trainer also said that Dinah looks good and if there is a lag it is so small it is not to think about.
This weekend we finally got a good soaking beneficial rain. It was wonderful. Everything outside has perked up. Now, a few days later and we are getting some more light rain. The farmers are sure happy. I am sad to hear that other parts of the US are having devastating floods. Here is our state we were in a severe drought.
My oldest boyfriend finally got a paying job for writing. We are all so happy as that is his passion and he is good at it. It is a step in the right direction for him. It will not pay enough for him to live on his own so he still needs to find something else to do.
I see God working again in my life and those around me. Like I have said before, I always look even for the small. We can easily get depressed and that is our human nature. We pray forever for something to happen and everything else falls around it. But then, things do start changing. Thank you God for everything you do. I am sorry for all the sins I have done.
Now waiting to hear from my son that his academics at college are better than before. He is doing well there with everything else. I am also waiting for my husband to get a different job within his company. And waiting for some job for me for during the week.
Have a great rest of the week everyone and enjoy what God is doing for you.
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Life like the Amish
Our children are living in a age of total dependency on technology and electricity. We see that and experience as parents when there is no power or when the phone cables and internet are malfunctioning. Our children say we are like the Amish. That that this is what it must be like.
About three months ago, our area had three days of dangerous storms move through the area. My mom lost the power to her house which in turn made her phone not work. She is 87 and does not use a cell phone. When we called to see if she was okay and the phone didn't work, we were on our way to see what was wrong. My mom was fine but worried about her refrigerated food. My brother went to get her ice and they filled up two coolers with ice and food. She ate the leftover food and listened to the radio that had batteries. She was without power for a total of three days.
Now my mom does not have internet but she does have television and a dvd player. My children were just amazed that she lasted that long without television to entertain her. My brother and I, and my oldest were more concerned about her having food to eat and staying cool without air conditioner. Luckily her house is shaded by big trees. Our children only know television, internet and cell phones to entertain them. They open the fridge without concern for spoiling food. They count on the microwave always working. When any of these is malfunctioning, their world falls apart. My mom grew up on a farm during the depression where no you had nothing but your toys, family and pets to entertain you.
Just recently we had problems with our phone line and the inside of the phone jack inside of our house. We had no phone. Yes, we had our cell phones, but many people only have our landline numbers. In addition, not every area in the house is there service and I don't enjoy carrying my cell phone all around in order to answer it.
K had homework to do and could only be done with the help of the internet. We were trying fix the phone and during that time, we didn't have internet. She made some funny comeback that she was going to tell her teacher. I appalls me that teachers are relying on the internet for children to do their homework. We did get the internet working but still no phone.
We are up and running again. Everything got fixed. I am still just amazed at how dependent we have become on these luxury things that we now consider standard.
About three months ago, our area had three days of dangerous storms move through the area. My mom lost the power to her house which in turn made her phone not work. She is 87 and does not use a cell phone. When we called to see if she was okay and the phone didn't work, we were on our way to see what was wrong. My mom was fine but worried about her refrigerated food. My brother went to get her ice and they filled up two coolers with ice and food. She ate the leftover food and listened to the radio that had batteries. She was without power for a total of three days.
Now my mom does not have internet but she does have television and a dvd player. My children were just amazed that she lasted that long without television to entertain her. My brother and I, and my oldest were more concerned about her having food to eat and staying cool without air conditioner. Luckily her house is shaded by big trees. Our children only know television, internet and cell phones to entertain them. They open the fridge without concern for spoiling food. They count on the microwave always working. When any of these is malfunctioning, their world falls apart. My mom grew up on a farm during the depression where no you had nothing but your toys, family and pets to entertain you.
Just recently we had problems with our phone line and the inside of the phone jack inside of our house. We had no phone. Yes, we had our cell phones, but many people only have our landline numbers. In addition, not every area in the house is there service and I don't enjoy carrying my cell phone all around in order to answer it.
K had homework to do and could only be done with the help of the internet. We were trying fix the phone and during that time, we didn't have internet. She made some funny comeback that she was going to tell her teacher. I appalls me that teachers are relying on the internet for children to do their homework. We did get the internet working but still no phone.
We are up and running again. Everything got fixed. I am still just amazed at how dependent we have become on these luxury things that we now consider standard.
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Overseeing Show's season is over
Well, today was the last horse show for the season for this other saddle club. To sum it up it went fairly well.
A couple of days before it look like I was not going to have enough volunteers, always a problem. K, who didn't go to any game show from this saddle club, decided to help me out. In addition, our leaser for our horse did also.
The weather, well that was okay. It didn't storm and it wasn't cold or snowing. But, it was hot and dry. The footing was dusty.
I get there and things were already opened up for me. Some helpers were already there. The judge arrived and delivered his papers. We got everything set up and people started handing in the entry cards and paying.
We got started and everyone seemed happy. It was a small crowd. I figured the heat played a factor in it. We have had the show on the same weekend in years past. It competes with two communities special days, a thing called Warrior Dash, and students being back at college or school.
As the day went on, more people came for other events; and people stayed and decided to ride in more classes.
We ended the show about eleven hours after it started. That is a pretty good show. I really would have liked a bigger turnout but will not complain. The weather made it difficult to work in.
I am now done for the year. I believe I have successfully overseen many shows this year. The clubs have brought in quiet a bit of money, the judges have enjoyed themselves, the riders enjoyed themselves and the volunteers didn't get too worked out.
Will I do this next year? Probably not. The biggest reason is K will be graduating high school. There will be applying for college and then registering for classes. Plus the ceremony and open house. We will be moving A back from college and then back again. I love the recognition and the job well done. But this year the stress has really gotten to me along with the people that were not happy.
One odd thing, I have always wanted a horse but got one when one of my children had a passion also for them. I got into the saddle clubs because of her wanting to show. Once she is away at college, she won't be able to show. What will I do now? Will I continue to be members of saddle clubs? Will I continue to volunteer? Will I get into the showing passion?
My family would I rather just keep the horse, occasionally see it with a leaser involved and that be it. We will see what the next chapter brings.
A couple of days before it look like I was not going to have enough volunteers, always a problem. K, who didn't go to any game show from this saddle club, decided to help me out. In addition, our leaser for our horse did also.
The weather, well that was okay. It didn't storm and it wasn't cold or snowing. But, it was hot and dry. The footing was dusty.
I get there and things were already opened up for me. Some helpers were already there. The judge arrived and delivered his papers. We got everything set up and people started handing in the entry cards and paying.
We got started and everyone seemed happy. It was a small crowd. I figured the heat played a factor in it. We have had the show on the same weekend in years past. It competes with two communities special days, a thing called Warrior Dash, and students being back at college or school.
As the day went on, more people came for other events; and people stayed and decided to ride in more classes.
We ended the show about eleven hours after it started. That is a pretty good show. I really would have liked a bigger turnout but will not complain. The weather made it difficult to work in.
I am now done for the year. I believe I have successfully overseen many shows this year. The clubs have brought in quiet a bit of money, the judges have enjoyed themselves, the riders enjoyed themselves and the volunteers didn't get too worked out.
Will I do this next year? Probably not. The biggest reason is K will be graduating high school. There will be applying for college and then registering for classes. Plus the ceremony and open house. We will be moving A back from college and then back again. I love the recognition and the job well done. But this year the stress has really gotten to me along with the people that were not happy.
One odd thing, I have always wanted a horse but got one when one of my children had a passion also for them. I got into the saddle clubs because of her wanting to show. Once she is away at college, she won't be able to show. What will I do now? Will I continue to be members of saddle clubs? Will I continue to volunteer? Will I get into the showing passion?
My family would I rather just keep the horse, occasionally see it with a leaser involved and that be it. We will see what the next chapter brings.
Friday, September 6, 2013
This is a very personal and hard post to write. But, I need to just vent for a little bit. Through this one I hope there is some wife out there that this sounds familiar and can provide comfort and maybe some helpful ideas.
I have been married to W for twenty-seven years. We were engaged for one year and had been dating for two years prior to that. We met in college and were actually friends for about a year before even dating. I had a boyfriend back at home when we met.
Our marriage started out happy. During our second year, my father-in-law was diagnosed with colon and liver cancer. He passed away one year later. I obviously didn't know he that well. My husband become the main person to take care of his mom's finances. We already had experienced a stress moment in our marriage. Little did we know we would have more shortly after. I don't know exactly when our marriage turned sour, or if it slowly did. I can't say exactly what contributed to it only my ideas.
We were married three short years when our first daughter was born. I had been working and had plan to continue since I had the benefits. About a month before M was born, I received a layoff notice. My dad didn't like it and thought that maybe it was because of my pregnancy. I met with a lawyer for the company and they told me it wasn't. I still didn't like it. They didn't want me to sue so they offered me a wonderful package. We had no money for a lawyer so I accepted. Now, everything fell upon my husband and his job. It was financially hard at first. My dad offered to pay for me to finish college. I did that and graduated when M was one. W did not want me to go back to work. Between the birth of our oldest and our second was difficult. I tried some jobs but it was hard with no help from my husband for daycare. W left his first employer and went to another. One year later he was laid off. He finally got a job and then had to move two hours away from home for almost two years. During that time my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer and our second child was born. Praise the Lord and my mom beat the cancer. Over the course of ten years, W went through a few employers. When our last child was one and half, I went to work at a retail store for the weekends. I am still there and have had many positions there. This last employer for my husband has lasted eight years and still counting.
I have had health problems with one making it difficult to get pregnant. This clearly has been difficult for my husband and created in his mind the fact that I hated him.
Prior to his heart surgery three years ago, it was horrible. Our children wished we would get a divorce so there would be peace in the house. After the surgery, he became a different person. Until, the real world came back and we started having major life stresses again. He tells me that I am always argumentative, hurtful, condescending, accusing and attacking him. W will spend five, ten or fifteen minutes talking about the things I do that are wrong or hurt him. When I try to let him know that same thing (or what I am going through), he says that it is still my fault or I am remembering things wrong. It is all about him and how I need to change. W takes what I say and changes it to be something negative about him. If I have had a bad day for whatever reason, I haven taken out on him (no matter if we have not seen each other all day). Yet when he does, either he doesn't take out on me, or it is okay because I need to give him understanding and support him.
W gets upset if I spend time at the stables, with friends or at the saddle club functions. I don't see him all day then I am not home to give him a hug. He on the other hand, is always there even though after work he has to exercise for his diabetes.
He has the mind frame that my job is to make money, take care of the children, make meals, and all the other chores and be there for him. His job, is to make money. Nothing else. If my opinion on a subject is different than his, he proceeds to tell me I am wrong. W does everything to convince me.
W has double standards. He can do things and treat me one way and I have to be a different way. I feel so alone. I know I can't change him, but I do not enjoy being in his company. I don't know what else to do. Our children do experience and agree how he is towards me. I do think that they sometimes think I might be better alone.
Sorry this is such a long post. I just get so discouraged.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
It is my birthday today. I am 49 years old. There are some days I feel that old considering all the surgeries I have had. Most days though I don't feel that old. I have had a few people ask me if I adopted my oldest child. I don't understand the question and ask why. Their response is for a child to be of that age there is no way you could be old enough to have had her. I proceed to ask them how old they think I am. 90% of the time their answer is about ten years younger than I actually am. I feel complimented by that and thank them yet after many years of this I for once would like to people to guess my age within one year of it.
My birthdays are sometimes hard for me. Ever since I was a little girl and could understand things, I knew I was adopted. I also knew my brother was too, except we were from two different families. I love my brother and loved my dad. I have not always gotten along with my mom and have times as a teenager felt to not be the right match for this family. I have always wanted to know who my parents were and any other family. I can't say it was to replace my current one, but to know who I look like, act like and whose health problems I inherited. I did find out a little big of information about my mom's side. I started a letter communication with her only other daughter. I then received letters from my mother's sister. I know a lot about them and have gotten a little bit of information about my father and mother. My mother does not want to communicate with me and the records are sealed for my father.
After I got a job and moved out on my own, my mom and I developed a good relationship. To this day, I know these are my parents and I love them dearly. But there are two people who created me even in God's eyes. My brother has never searched for any information on his parents. Since my dad has been gone, I do feel a void. Do I hire a lawyer to get a judge to open those records? I don't know. I ended the relationship with my half-sister. It was a one-way relationship. Her letters were all about her and wanting gifts for her daughters and her. She never really cared what was happening in my life. My aunt is different. The relationship still exists but on my terms.
Some days my children tell me that I have no biological information to contribute to them if they have to do reports for school. Yet, they love their grandparents dearly. I believe as they get older, they will understand that what I have they will enjoy hearing. My husband knows about the mental illness my sister and mother have. He uses those against me when that information can help him prove his point.
Does my mom think about me on this day? Does my father? Has my father told his family about me? Is he still alive?
Finances have prevented me from adopted children myself. I wanted children of my own, but would have also loved to adopt. Or, open my home up to young women that are single and wanting to give up their child after it is born.
As I sit here on my birthday, I know that God placed me in the family he did so that I could have the basic needs and opportunities to do things I wanted and to grow. His hand is also in whether I know things about my parents or have a relationship. He also has determined the finances to not help children or pregnant unwed mothers. Last but not least, he allows situations to happen such as being a stay at home mom, all these surgeries, the problems my children face to somehow strength and teach me.
I do wonder what my purpose is. Many of my dreams and passions have been snuffed out. I have had an allergic reaction to something so severe that my throat swelled up almost completely shut. It was a miracle that I woke up and got to the emergency room. With all the hard aches I have experienced since then, I wonder why I survived. I have learned to find things instead of seeing what is not there.
Once I get to heaven, will I see my biological parents and know that is them? Good question. But for now, Happy Birthday to me!!!!
My birthdays are sometimes hard for me. Ever since I was a little girl and could understand things, I knew I was adopted. I also knew my brother was too, except we were from two different families. I love my brother and loved my dad. I have not always gotten along with my mom and have times as a teenager felt to not be the right match for this family. I have always wanted to know who my parents were and any other family. I can't say it was to replace my current one, but to know who I look like, act like and whose health problems I inherited. I did find out a little big of information about my mom's side. I started a letter communication with her only other daughter. I then received letters from my mother's sister. I know a lot about them and have gotten a little bit of information about my father and mother. My mother does not want to communicate with me and the records are sealed for my father.
After I got a job and moved out on my own, my mom and I developed a good relationship. To this day, I know these are my parents and I love them dearly. But there are two people who created me even in God's eyes. My brother has never searched for any information on his parents. Since my dad has been gone, I do feel a void. Do I hire a lawyer to get a judge to open those records? I don't know. I ended the relationship with my half-sister. It was a one-way relationship. Her letters were all about her and wanting gifts for her daughters and her. She never really cared what was happening in my life. My aunt is different. The relationship still exists but on my terms.
Some days my children tell me that I have no biological information to contribute to them if they have to do reports for school. Yet, they love their grandparents dearly. I believe as they get older, they will understand that what I have they will enjoy hearing. My husband knows about the mental illness my sister and mother have. He uses those against me when that information can help him prove his point.
Does my mom think about me on this day? Does my father? Has my father told his family about me? Is he still alive?
Finances have prevented me from adopted children myself. I wanted children of my own, but would have also loved to adopt. Or, open my home up to young women that are single and wanting to give up their child after it is born.
As I sit here on my birthday, I know that God placed me in the family he did so that I could have the basic needs and opportunities to do things I wanted and to grow. His hand is also in whether I know things about my parents or have a relationship. He also has determined the finances to not help children or pregnant unwed mothers. Last but not least, he allows situations to happen such as being a stay at home mom, all these surgeries, the problems my children face to somehow strength and teach me.
I do wonder what my purpose is. Many of my dreams and passions have been snuffed out. I have had an allergic reaction to something so severe that my throat swelled up almost completely shut. It was a miracle that I woke up and got to the emergency room. With all the hard aches I have experienced since then, I wonder why I survived. I have learned to find things instead of seeing what is not there.
Once I get to heaven, will I see my biological parents and know that is them? Good question. But for now, Happy Birthday to me!!!!
Monday, September 2, 2013
Horse Show
Another successful horse show chaired on the books. It was a beautiful day except the dirt in the arena was so dry that when the riders rode, a lot of dust was put up by the hooves. This made it hard for the judge to see the horse and rider. It even caused some horses to cough. It sure would have been nice to have had rain to wet the ground.
My daughter didn't bring our horse there. The first reason, our horse is still recovering from the injury. Also, it was to have been a hot day.
The day started out with Pleasure riders. When I got there, nothing was set up. I started telling people that I had no key to open the trailer. Voila, someone came with there key. People started setting things up. But wait, where are my office helpers? They didn't show up. Good thing my daughter came through with her commitment. The judge arrived and asked to help. She did a little. We started a little late, but that was okay. This show was only for members of this club. Now, my other helpers, they didn't show up. Scramble again.
The Pleasure riders had fun. So did the judge. It went by rather quickly as to few entrants.
Next were the Gamers. That part didn't need a judge so we paid her and thanked her for coming. The Gaming portion always takes a while. You have to stop and set up the pattern again after a rider knocks something down. A rider might fall off their horse, or the horse doesn't want to come in right away. Riders are allowed to ride more than one horse. I seemed to have more help with this part of the show.
The show ended by mid-afternoon. Everyone had a great time and the club made some more money.
I was tired. I had worked all day long. I came home and showered. I started looking for my things and couldn't find the money box. I drove back and it was gone. I called the last family that was there and the went and saw it in the trailer. I think I have done so much my mind was fried by that point.
The part I think is goofy is that people put down their hours of working and I clearly know they didn't do it. I love watching a show go off with very little problems, riders and spectators having a great time. I feel a sense of accomplishment that the judge had a positive experience and that the club made money.
I don't think I will be the chair of this committee next year for this club. With my youngest graduating high school and all of the activities surrounding that; along with my son moving back home from being gone his first year at college then moving back; and that my husband would like to sell and get a smaller house with land, I will be too busy. I love doing this but there is too much pressure to do it successfully next year.
Well, I have another one next weekend. This is for a different club and this is a large one with participants coming from other clubs and all around the state. Time to get things in order for that one.
My daughter didn't bring our horse there. The first reason, our horse is still recovering from the injury. Also, it was to have been a hot day.
The day started out with Pleasure riders. When I got there, nothing was set up. I started telling people that I had no key to open the trailer. Voila, someone came with there key. People started setting things up. But wait, where are my office helpers? They didn't show up. Good thing my daughter came through with her commitment. The judge arrived and asked to help. She did a little. We started a little late, but that was okay. This show was only for members of this club. Now, my other helpers, they didn't show up. Scramble again.
The Pleasure riders had fun. So did the judge. It went by rather quickly as to few entrants.
Next were the Gamers. That part didn't need a judge so we paid her and thanked her for coming. The Gaming portion always takes a while. You have to stop and set up the pattern again after a rider knocks something down. A rider might fall off their horse, or the horse doesn't want to come in right away. Riders are allowed to ride more than one horse. I seemed to have more help with this part of the show.
The show ended by mid-afternoon. Everyone had a great time and the club made some more money.
I was tired. I had worked all day long. I came home and showered. I started looking for my things and couldn't find the money box. I drove back and it was gone. I called the last family that was there and the went and saw it in the trailer. I think I have done so much my mind was fried by that point.
The part I think is goofy is that people put down their hours of working and I clearly know they didn't do it. I love watching a show go off with very little problems, riders and spectators having a great time. I feel a sense of accomplishment that the judge had a positive experience and that the club made money.
I don't think I will be the chair of this committee next year for this club. With my youngest graduating high school and all of the activities surrounding that; along with my son moving back home from being gone his first year at college then moving back; and that my husband would like to sell and get a smaller house with land, I will be too busy. I love doing this but there is too much pressure to do it successfully next year.
Well, I have another one next weekend. This is for a different club and this is a large one with participants coming from other clubs and all around the state. Time to get things in order for that one.
Friday, August 30, 2013
I am siting here in my house today finally with the windows open. The past week and a half has been unbearable outside. I am sorry to say but I am not a fan of summer even if the heat is dry heat. Hot, is hot.
I am thankful to the Lord for lowering the temperature today. But, disappointment that we have had no significant rainfall in over a month. My horse is a little bit better, but not perfect yet. I still don't have a job for during the week, and many other things. I ask God to answer these prayers many times during the day. I cry out to him and I even got mad. Before you thoughts go any farther, yes I thank him for every little and large thing he answers and provides. I ask for forgiveness each day and ask what am I doing wrong. I pray for other peoples needs and what does God want here on earth. I wonder why do these needs go unmet? How much longer? Does God not know that if there are not soon, the basic needs of food and shelter will no longer be there? How much more can a person go through?
My oldest daughter's boyfriend graduated from college two years ago. The degree with which he earned was not his passion. He decided to pursue his passion. He still does not have a paying job in it. He was still working his college part-time job but they let him go. Everyday he is on the computer looking at job postings for what he was doing and his passion. I honestly don't know how much longer he can take this.
My son wants to be accepted, included and be successful. All during school he didn't get invited to many parties. He had a very small group of friends. A also struggled with grades. He would start the term out great and then it went down hill. A's desire has always been to be a A student. But every report and teacher has crushed him. It also was difficult for him to get a part-time job. Once he got it, he always struggled with the restaurant manager.
K has had social anxiety all her school life. It carries over into her personal life. K has learned how to overcome her fears most of the time. Yet, there are new situations where she still needs help. We could never find a treating professional in our area with our insurance company. I researched online and found a group that had literature about it. They also held seminars with a licensed professional speaking. After attending a few of them, I transferred those techniques to K. When she needs guidance, I am there to help her. I have been both mom and a treating professional to her.
The weather. It is either too wet, or to dry. It is too hot. It affects our yard, my health, my horse (her health, her food). It affects our food and the cost.
My husband who is a diabetic and always needs to exercise. In addition, he wants either a different position in his company or a promotion. A raise is needed also since I am working only weekends. He also takes care of his mom's money and is there when the nursing home has questions. Oh, I answer those calls also.
Then there is me. My health and that I am not working.
All my life I have had struggles. I have had health issues, dealing with being adopted, watching many family members die, my own struggles with grades and college, etc. I grow weary waiting for God to answer all. I have been told he is a strong God and can do everything. Why then are so many of these still waiting? Sometimes I wish the world would end and all this suffering would end. Yes, there are other that are in more desperate situations and struggling far worse than me. I still can't help but feel discouraged. Am I alone? Does anyone else feel like this?
I am thankful to the Lord for lowering the temperature today. But, disappointment that we have had no significant rainfall in over a month. My horse is a little bit better, but not perfect yet. I still don't have a job for during the week, and many other things. I ask God to answer these prayers many times during the day. I cry out to him and I even got mad. Before you thoughts go any farther, yes I thank him for every little and large thing he answers and provides. I ask for forgiveness each day and ask what am I doing wrong. I pray for other peoples needs and what does God want here on earth. I wonder why do these needs go unmet? How much longer? Does God not know that if there are not soon, the basic needs of food and shelter will no longer be there? How much more can a person go through?
My oldest daughter's boyfriend graduated from college two years ago. The degree with which he earned was not his passion. He decided to pursue his passion. He still does not have a paying job in it. He was still working his college part-time job but they let him go. Everyday he is on the computer looking at job postings for what he was doing and his passion. I honestly don't know how much longer he can take this.
My son wants to be accepted, included and be successful. All during school he didn't get invited to many parties. He had a very small group of friends. A also struggled with grades. He would start the term out great and then it went down hill. A's desire has always been to be a A student. But every report and teacher has crushed him. It also was difficult for him to get a part-time job. Once he got it, he always struggled with the restaurant manager.
K has had social anxiety all her school life. It carries over into her personal life. K has learned how to overcome her fears most of the time. Yet, there are new situations where she still needs help. We could never find a treating professional in our area with our insurance company. I researched online and found a group that had literature about it. They also held seminars with a licensed professional speaking. After attending a few of them, I transferred those techniques to K. When she needs guidance, I am there to help her. I have been both mom and a treating professional to her.
The weather. It is either too wet, or to dry. It is too hot. It affects our yard, my health, my horse (her health, her food). It affects our food and the cost.
My husband who is a diabetic and always needs to exercise. In addition, he wants either a different position in his company or a promotion. A raise is needed also since I am working only weekends. He also takes care of his mom's money and is there when the nursing home has questions. Oh, I answer those calls also.
Then there is me. My health and that I am not working.
All my life I have had struggles. I have had health issues, dealing with being adopted, watching many family members die, my own struggles with grades and college, etc. I grow weary waiting for God to answer all. I have been told he is a strong God and can do everything. Why then are so many of these still waiting? Sometimes I wish the world would end and all this suffering would end. Yes, there are other that are in more desperate situations and struggling far worse than me. I still can't help but feel discouraged. Am I alone? Does anyone else feel like this?
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
My son is in his fourth full day by himself down at college. This is his second day of classes. He has no a/c and is on the third floor. We have been have heat warnings since his second day there. I have been praying that the weather cools down and we get some relief to wash out the pollen from the air.
From the pictures on Facebook, it looks like he is getting involved in activities there. We are happy to see that as he has been more of a shy kid in school and not having a lot of friends. A was never in sports or other school activities. He did however participate in children outings with our church. It didn't help either that my husband's family has anxiety and has problems with social gatherings. Nor that my husband and A have never gotten along. My husband's expectations and standards have always been higher for him than our oldest. Sometimes higher than for our youngest. A is the middle and the only boy in our family. I believe many times he has felt out of place. I had one brother who was older. My husband was the middle with a brother on both ends. To me, my husband should have understood what it was like to be in the middle, but didn't. W (my husband) is a high achiever when it came to school. He knew that that would get him a higher paying job than what his dad had. W wanted a better life for himself as an adult then he had growing up. My son is not book smart but street smart. M is book smart and K is both. I am street smart. W is a black and white person. He doesn't understand why people aren't a certain way. He struggles to accept them the way they are and not how he things they should be. I am seeing my husband softening with A and missing him.
I hope A is giving this college a real hard go a getting better grades. I hope he really tries to apply himself more. He always has and has always wanted to get the A's and B's like his older sister. The grading period starts out like that, but then by the end his final grades came down.
I am missing him myself. He was the one I could talk to. Though I can talk to K very easily also. Sometimes it feels like he won't be back. I think it is like this because he was home for two years after high school. I thought at first he would be home sick, and now it seems like he doesn't even want to communicate with us. He was excited to go but also very nervous. I hope he still wants to come back home and visit and communicate with us. In the past three years, I have had three surgeries. Out of all three children, he helped me the most. K was next. A did so much around the house. He even wanted to be in the choosing of picking out another horse whenever we were going to do that. I just sat there with a smile on my face watching A and K looking at the internet.
I know he is happy but will also grow up and mature there. In the mean time, I will be focusing on K and her senior of high school.
From the pictures on Facebook, it looks like he is getting involved in activities there. We are happy to see that as he has been more of a shy kid in school and not having a lot of friends. A was never in sports or other school activities. He did however participate in children outings with our church. It didn't help either that my husband's family has anxiety and has problems with social gatherings. Nor that my husband and A have never gotten along. My husband's expectations and standards have always been higher for him than our oldest. Sometimes higher than for our youngest. A is the middle and the only boy in our family. I believe many times he has felt out of place. I had one brother who was older. My husband was the middle with a brother on both ends. To me, my husband should have understood what it was like to be in the middle, but didn't. W (my husband) is a high achiever when it came to school. He knew that that would get him a higher paying job than what his dad had. W wanted a better life for himself as an adult then he had growing up. My son is not book smart but street smart. M is book smart and K is both. I am street smart. W is a black and white person. He doesn't understand why people aren't a certain way. He struggles to accept them the way they are and not how he things they should be. I am seeing my husband softening with A and missing him.
I hope A is giving this college a real hard go a getting better grades. I hope he really tries to apply himself more. He always has and has always wanted to get the A's and B's like his older sister. The grading period starts out like that, but then by the end his final grades came down.
I am missing him myself. He was the one I could talk to. Though I can talk to K very easily also. Sometimes it feels like he won't be back. I think it is like this because he was home for two years after high school. I thought at first he would be home sick, and now it seems like he doesn't even want to communicate with us. He was excited to go but also very nervous. I hope he still wants to come back home and visit and communicate with us. In the past three years, I have had three surgeries. Out of all three children, he helped me the most. K was next. A did so much around the house. He even wanted to be in the choosing of picking out another horse whenever we were going to do that. I just sat there with a smile on my face watching A and K looking at the internet.
I know he is happy but will also grow up and mature there. In the mean time, I will be focusing on K and her senior of high school.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
My son packing to go off to finish his four-year degree away from home
My son leaves for college in a few days. He started off at a community college because of his test score. As he went to school there he was also working part-time. He finished all of his general classes with a respectable GPA, but not as high as his older sister or his dad. My son would drive his dad's car to school and work. He put gas in it, oil, oil changes and helped where he could with repairs. He bought his own clothes and food. That is more than his sister did. My belief on grades and school is that it doesn't matter how well your grades are if you can't manage your money, time, know how to take care of things, put other people first, etc. In other words, common sense. My son has alot of that. During this time at the college he did change his career choice a few times. He finally found a path that is his passion and there is a career for it.
My son had a daily list of things to do. I went through things in his room. He decided what did he want to keep and what did he want to give away. He did this because he saw how his older sister never did any of this and still has things at home because there is no room in her apartment. Whenever she would start to go through things, she would wind up remembering about those items and then thinking maybe she should keep it. Uh, oh, her time is up and she didn't get anything done, and needs to be somewhere. I feel sorry for the man she is going to marry. My son A (I will call him that, my oldest will be M and my youngest will be K) just starting throwing things out and hardly saving anything. One of those days happen to be when I was at work and my husband said to him while we were on the phone "you are not moving out yet, just going off to college; you will be home on breaks". Not sure if that change my sons mind. There were times A wanted us around but we weren't and he was sad. We found other times and I hope that made up for it. He then had to decide what he wanted to bring and put in his room. At this point, he had no roommate yet. We had most of the things the college had said he needed on his check list. I was so excited to help him. His younger sister was helping also. A and K have always been close, they have similar interests.
I see the excitement in my son, the desire to leave home and be his own person, the nervousness, the fear, the hope of making new friends and doing better in his studies. A has been the one to do most of the chores around the house. He is the only grandson on my side of the family. His grandfather passed away five months before he graduated from high school. With A being gone, there is a lot more for K to do and my husband and I. I am excited right now but will be sad once we are back home and the routine of him gone is here. I know for my husband it is different. They have always butted heads on many things. The past two years they have grown closer but still are at odds. I believe for K there will be days that it will be lonely since she is the last child at home. My family says that A is my favorite, at times maybe. But I know M says I pamper K also. My husband M have gotten along better because they view things more similarly.
Move in day is here soon. We will make it through, God always helps us.
My son had a daily list of things to do. I went through things in his room. He decided what did he want to keep and what did he want to give away. He did this because he saw how his older sister never did any of this and still has things at home because there is no room in her apartment. Whenever she would start to go through things, she would wind up remembering about those items and then thinking maybe she should keep it. Uh, oh, her time is up and she didn't get anything done, and needs to be somewhere. I feel sorry for the man she is going to marry. My son A (I will call him that, my oldest will be M and my youngest will be K) just starting throwing things out and hardly saving anything. One of those days happen to be when I was at work and my husband said to him while we were on the phone "you are not moving out yet, just going off to college; you will be home on breaks". Not sure if that change my sons mind. There were times A wanted us around but we weren't and he was sad. We found other times and I hope that made up for it. He then had to decide what he wanted to bring and put in his room. At this point, he had no roommate yet. We had most of the things the college had said he needed on his check list. I was so excited to help him. His younger sister was helping also. A and K have always been close, they have similar interests.
I see the excitement in my son, the desire to leave home and be his own person, the nervousness, the fear, the hope of making new friends and doing better in his studies. A has been the one to do most of the chores around the house. He is the only grandson on my side of the family. His grandfather passed away five months before he graduated from high school. With A being gone, there is a lot more for K to do and my husband and I. I am excited right now but will be sad once we are back home and the routine of him gone is here. I know for my husband it is different. They have always butted heads on many things. The past two years they have grown closer but still are at odds. I believe for K there will be days that it will be lonely since she is the last child at home. My family says that A is my favorite, at times maybe. But I know M says I pamper K also. My husband M have gotten along better because they view things more similarly.
Move in day is here soon. We will make it through, God always helps us.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
The frustrations of a horse that has continuous pain and is not ridable
My youngest child, daughter, and I own a horse, She is a 17 year old horse named Dinah. We have had her for five years. My daughter brings her to shows where she competes in game events. Dinah just loves to go fast but my daughter loves to do barrels, poles, keys and four in a line. When we first got this horse, she had been competed in Pleasure. That is riding where the horse goes slow and looks like it is fun. It also looks fun for the rider. There is a judge that decides which horse looks the best and which rider looks the best. After a couple of years of this, both my daughter, me (show mom), and the horse decided this was no fun. My daughter and I hated washing the horse and braiding it's mane and tail the night before when it is hot, humid out with a million bugs around you. The horse hated standing still instead of getting rid of the bugs and then having a sheet put over it's body to keep it pretty while feeling like it is in a sauna then all night. We would arrive to the stables at about six the next morning to find the horse won with getting itself dirty and everything undone. We tried to fix what we could do until it was time to load her in the trailer and drive up to the location the show was at. I, as show mom, would always forget something that my daughter needed for her clothes, and she would fight wearing those fancy clothes. At the end of each ride, if she didn't place, my daughter would cry. How do you explain to a pre-teen that the judge's decision is subjective. There is no comfort in that to them. All of the other girls had winning horses that had cost a lot of money, with high buck trainers and the girls taking lessons every week. My daughter needed to volunteer at the shows to win awards for this club and started studying the riders in the game shows. During the off-season she starting trying those patterns back at the stable with our horse. She loved it and so did the horse. The next season she decided to give it a try. They dd okay. There was no judge, no fancy clothes, no getting the horse ready the night before. We all were hooked. Since then that is what my daughter has been doing with the horse. I ride just regular type of things. My daughter does still do pleasure things, some trail riding, and has introduced her to cows. This show season has been nonexistent due to weather this year. Except for now, the horse pulled a muscle in her shoulder pretty deeply and is taking a long time to heal. It is so hard to see your horse in pain, not be able to walk or trot and not ride her. This has been hard on her since she loves to go. At times when there is no pain, Dinah starts to run and then oops, the pain is there. There is stall rest, then just walking, then hand trotting and hopefully riding. The connection you feel when you ride a horse or can ply with them is something you can't put into words.
Tomorrow is another day of letting Dinah be. Last year I had two surgeries in six months and couldn't ride her. That was a very long and difficult year for me. We just hope and pray that this injury will not require surgery or anything more. Since she is not our land and at a boarding stable, you go to bed each night putting your trust in the owner of that place and the people that work there. We do give her something for the pain, but like with humans you don't want to give it to them for an extended period of time. Well, time for me to try and fall asleep as my Dinah is in her stall trying to relax and sleep also. I pray that God puts her in his healing hands. Sleep my precious horse and heal your shoulder
Tomorrow is another day of letting Dinah be. Last year I had two surgeries in six months and couldn't ride her. That was a very long and difficult year for me. We just hope and pray that this injury will not require surgery or anything more. Since she is not our land and at a boarding stable, you go to bed each night putting your trust in the owner of that place and the people that work there. We do give her something for the pain, but like with humans you don't want to give it to them for an extended period of time. Well, time for me to try and fall asleep as my Dinah is in her stall trying to relax and sleep also. I pray that God puts her in his healing hands. Sleep my precious horse and heal your shoulder
Friday, August 16, 2013
My first time at trying this new technology.
What is blogging? Why do people blog?
I am a 48 year old mom. I decided to give this a try because people suggested it as something to entertain me. Here is a short history about me. I have three children. The oldest has a full-time job after graduating from college. She just moved out now into an apartment. My middle child just finished two years at a community college and is leaving soon for a four-year college three hours away. My youngest is a senior in high school. My husband works full-time and does travel. When I was eight months pregnant with my oldest, I was laid off from work at at large food company. With the advice of my dad, I stayed home and finished my college education. This allowed my husband to work long hours and travel to get a income that kept us surviving on his income. I did little jobs to help out when needed. We had two more children after that and he went through a few employers. When my youngest was a year and a half, I went to work at a retail store during the holidays. When that was over, they offered me a permanent position. Since I could work only on the weekends and avoid daycare, I took it. I did many different positions at that store until the recession hit. I needed to find work somewhere else. I found it at another retail store for during the week and stayed at the first one on the weekends. Back to the present, I left my week job because a doctor told my mom that she needed a MRI to see if she had bone cancer and if she needed hip replacement surgery. My mom is 87 years old, is a widow and lives alone in her house. I have one brother and we both live near her but I am the closest to her. My mom had cancer twenty years ago and they told her then that if she developed cancer again, she didn't have any treatment options because of what they were going to use this time to kill all of the cancer. So, I left that job, took my mom to the follow-up appointment to hear that there is no cancer and no surgery. She tore a muscle near her hip. The following week is summer break and two of my children are home. One has a part-time job and the other doesn't. Summer's are usually busy trying to keep them entertained, doing household chores and having enough food in the house. I knew this summer would be a little bit busier then others. My oldest moved out. That was a two week process with her. My niece got married and that was the first for my family. My youngest was getting to take her driver's test and my mother-in-law was very ill. In addition, my youngest and I own a horse. That in itself takes a lot of time. Our horse is boarded at a stable so there is extra time in driving over there and back home. Then if the horse is sick you are there every day. We are members of two saddle clubs and my daughter shows.
It is now the end of summer and the school year is here. I have applied at a few places and no phone calls. I am going to try to do temporary agencies but with my only experience for the past fifteen years being retail I am not confident I will get anything for office work. It is said that I spend five years in college to get a degree that I can't use because it is more than twenty years old. At least I have my job on the weekends and the volunteer work I do for the saddle clubs. I am hoping this blogging will keep my mind engaged and I will not become bored. In addition, I hope with what I write about, others will either enjoy reading or learn from it. Ta ta, for now.
I am a 48 year old mom. I decided to give this a try because people suggested it as something to entertain me. Here is a short history about me. I have three children. The oldest has a full-time job after graduating from college. She just moved out now into an apartment. My middle child just finished two years at a community college and is leaving soon for a four-year college three hours away. My youngest is a senior in high school. My husband works full-time and does travel. When I was eight months pregnant with my oldest, I was laid off from work at at large food company. With the advice of my dad, I stayed home and finished my college education. This allowed my husband to work long hours and travel to get a income that kept us surviving on his income. I did little jobs to help out when needed. We had two more children after that and he went through a few employers. When my youngest was a year and a half, I went to work at a retail store during the holidays. When that was over, they offered me a permanent position. Since I could work only on the weekends and avoid daycare, I took it. I did many different positions at that store until the recession hit. I needed to find work somewhere else. I found it at another retail store for during the week and stayed at the first one on the weekends. Back to the present, I left my week job because a doctor told my mom that she needed a MRI to see if she had bone cancer and if she needed hip replacement surgery. My mom is 87 years old, is a widow and lives alone in her house. I have one brother and we both live near her but I am the closest to her. My mom had cancer twenty years ago and they told her then that if she developed cancer again, she didn't have any treatment options because of what they were going to use this time to kill all of the cancer. So, I left that job, took my mom to the follow-up appointment to hear that there is no cancer and no surgery. She tore a muscle near her hip. The following week is summer break and two of my children are home. One has a part-time job and the other doesn't. Summer's are usually busy trying to keep them entertained, doing household chores and having enough food in the house. I knew this summer would be a little bit busier then others. My oldest moved out. That was a two week process with her. My niece got married and that was the first for my family. My youngest was getting to take her driver's test and my mother-in-law was very ill. In addition, my youngest and I own a horse. That in itself takes a lot of time. Our horse is boarded at a stable so there is extra time in driving over there and back home. Then if the horse is sick you are there every day. We are members of two saddle clubs and my daughter shows.
It is now the end of summer and the school year is here. I have applied at a few places and no phone calls. I am going to try to do temporary agencies but with my only experience for the past fifteen years being retail I am not confident I will get anything for office work. It is said that I spend five years in college to get a degree that I can't use because it is more than twenty years old. At least I have my job on the weekends and the volunteer work I do for the saddle clubs. I am hoping this blogging will keep my mind engaged and I will not become bored. In addition, I hope with what I write about, others will either enjoy reading or learn from it. Ta ta, for now.
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